Thursday, December 28, 2006

December 28, 2006

We now have flights! That's one step. We have been told to leave here on January 10th. That's a bit sooner than we expected, but we're OK with it. They want to make sure we have plenty of slack time, in case we are delayed somewhere due to bad weather. Our current plan is that we will fly back to the U.S. on Feb. 3rd.  Our two sons will be around 14.5 and 16 months old when we return with them.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

December 27, 2006

We have a court date!! It is scheduled for Jan. 17th and they said they want us there by the 13th or 14th. We're not sure about a lot of the details, such as do they want us in Moscow on those dates or in Volgograd. The 10 days is never waived in this region, unless there is a serious medical problem, so we are expecting a long stay, although we will get to see the children every day. It sounds like we will probably be returning home around Feb. 1st.

I'm shaking. I think I'm in shock.

A shower was being planned for us on Jan 13th, so I guess that will have to wait. My family is still planning to have a small, family shower on Jan. 6th, which will be nice.

We have about 2.5 weeks before we leave. I feel so unprepared and I don't know where to begin. I have been collecting books and magazines that I want to read but have not had time yet, so I am good shape for that.

I better start taking down the tree. I don't think I am thinking rationally right now.

I'm still shaking. I'm definitely in shock.....and loving it:).

Thursday, December 21, 2006

December 21, 2006

I just received an email from our case worker, forwarding an email from our adoption country facilitator, saying that she is planning to meet with the judge about our case on Dec. 26th and is hoping for an end of January court date. Yay!

I am so relieved to finally hear something. I just found out today that our agency is closed from Christmas Monday through New Year's Monday and I know our adoption country is pretty much closed down from Jan 1 through Jan 12, so I was really bumming out that we had not heard anything yet. I sent another email to our case worker, explaining my frustration and asking her more about what to expect and she just sent back the email that I mentioned above. So that is a huge relief and gives us something to look forward to after the New Year. Hopefully we will find out the exact date for court during the first week of January and we will travel in mid to late January. That is my Christmas wish:).

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

December 5, 2006

We have our Christmas tree up. It looks pretty with the snow in the background, through the windows. It also smells really good.

We had to take the tinsel off the bottom 6 inches or so of the tree and move it higher because Dancer would not leave it alone. He kept trying to play with it and, once he had it in his mouth, he had a really hard time getting it out of his mouth. These cats really have been good practice for the kids, in many ways.

Another funny thing that came up was that we were trying to remember how many stockings we had. I was thinking we had purchased 4 stockings, 2 for us and two for the cats but I could not remember if the 2 for the cats had their names on them. I told Paul, if they did not have the cat's names on them, we could use them for the kids. He thought we could still use them for the kids, even if they did have the cat's names on them. He said we could just turn them around and put the kid's names on the other side. So, our kids stockings would have their names on one side and the cat's name on the other side. I thought it was pretty funny that he thought this was acceptable. Once we got the boxes out of the attic and unpacked them, we realized we had only purchased 2 stockings anyway. So it isn't an issue and our children will get stockings that were not handed down from our cats.

A funny story about the stroller: I came home one evening from an event I attended and my husband was pushing both cats around in the stroller. It is a side-by-side twin stroller and both cats were sitting on their own side and it was obvious they were enjoying the ride. It was really funny. I should have gotten a picture but I missed it. I'm afraid our cats are not going to know what to think when our children arrive.

Friday, December 01, 2006

December 1, 2006 Part 2

I took some pictures around our house, of all of the snow we received yesterday. I think we got about 10 inches of snow, on top of the huge amount of ice that had already come down. This is quite an event for Oklahoma. It is not unusual to get snow but it is unusual to get this much this early in the year. It set a record for the day; the prior record for that day was 4.6 inches, I think.

Here is the first picture I took. Believe it or not, I took this AFTER we had already been outside, shoveling snow for an hour and a half!

Isn't this pretty? I took this from inside of our bedroom. I thought it came out pretty good, considering it was taken through glass, although Zoe's head was in the way. It was a beautiful sunrise and we are having an absolutely beautiful day today...completely clear blue skies and bright, beautiful, white snow EVERYWHERE! Yea!!

And, this is why we were up at 4:00am this morning. My husband had to go to work today so we had to get the driveway cleared out.

This is our house. There is a small circle drive in front of the house and there is a sidewalk from there up to the front door, but you can't really tell there here.

And this is the road in front of our house. That is our mailbox on the left. You can get a feel for how much snow we got. They have now plowed the road.

That's it for now:). Hope you enjoyed it.

December 1, 2006

You are all going to be sorry that I now know how to upload pictures on the blog:). Today, I am making up for the past, for all of the times that I told you about stuff I was doing around the house but never produced the requested pictures. Now, here they are!!

OK, you didn't ask for this one but I thought I would include it anyway. Here is a close up picture of us:). As you can see, this is from our wedding day. We were married on Feb. 19, 2005, so we are coming up on our 2nd anniversary.

We had a lovely wedding. We were married in Tucson, AZ at a resort. We were living in Texas at the time but my mother-in-law was not well enough to make the trip to Texas so we decided to have the wedding in Tucson.

For our honeymoon, we went to Australia and New Zealand. Since we were planning to have children asap, we knew we would probably not be able to take a trip like that again any time soon. We had a wonderful time and have some beautiful pictures to remember it by.

Here are pictures of the baby room. The pictures on the wall were my craft project. I found a calendar that had all of the old pictures from the old Dick and Jane readers. These were books that were used for many, many years, in first grade, to teach children to read. I learned to read using these books (See Dick run. Run Dick run. etc.) so I was excited when I found this calendar at a book store. I bought 12 unfinished frames and I finished them myself using a technique to make them look old. Hard to see in the picture but they really came out pretty good. I'm not much of a crafty person so I was pretty happy with the results.

The little rocking chair was mine and my brother and sister's when we were little. They are twins and are only 15 months older than I am. We also have two older brothers. So, when I was born, my mother had twins who were 15 months old, in addition to a 3 and 5 year old. Can you believe that?? And we think we have it hard!

When I lived out east (Boston), I bought the rocking horse for my niece, about 15 years ago, and my sister kept it all this time so we are borrowing it for the boys.

My friend from Texas got us the huge teddy bear, just before we moved to Oklahoma. Isn't he cute?

My mom gave us the antique rocking chair she bought the antique dresser for me a very long time ago, as a graduation gift when I graduated from junior college.

I found the changing table and one of the cribs at a consignment store and we bought the other crib from BRU with a gift certificate from the wonderful people I worked with in Texas.

So, that's the baby's room. I would like to find some more fun things to put on the walls, more colorful. Hopefully I will find something fun soon.

The boys will share a room, if it works out OK. I was thinking it might make them feel better, since they are used to having other children in the room when they sleep. There is another room right next door, painted the same blue color, and they share a Jack and Jill bath. So, eventually they can have their own rooms and share the bath.

Next. These are pictures of the library/playroom. This used to be the formal dining room in our house but we are not formal people. We do, however, have a lot of books and we love to read, so we changed this into a library/playroom. We had the shelves built and they go all the way around the room, except for the area in front of the windows.

I found the little table and four chairs on the internet a while back, along with the play table with the toy boxes underneath.

Next, we have our cats, who are our current/first babies. They are Bengal cats and they both have great personalities. The cat on the left is Dancer, who is male and is bigger than Zoe, the cat on the right, who is female.

I thought this was pretty funny and now you can see our two high chairs. My sister gave us the smaller one; she used it for her two children. My mom found the larger one at a thrift shop.

I know we will have bigger messes with these small trays but I really like the older, wooden higher chairs a lot. I guess because that's what my sister always used and they kind of match the cribs...not that you would necessarily know that, since they are upstairs in the baby room.

Anyway, isn't this funny? Zoe is on left and Dancer on the right.

That's it for now, since this is getting pretty long. I will post again though because I took some great pictures of the snow around our house.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

November 30, 2006

Ok, here it is, finally. I am finally going to try to post a picture. This is a picture of my husband and I while we were in Russia. We were out for a day of sightseeing and our translator/guide took our picture in front of this monastery. It was very pretty and it was very cold that day.

Here are some pictures we took from the plane, on our way home from Russia on our first trip. These are pictures of Greenland and I thought they came out pretty good, considering we were really high up.

Monday, November 13, 2006

November 13, 2006

I feel so disorganized! My head is spinning. There are so many things I need to get done; I can't believe Thanksgiving is next week already!

We have bought 2 car seats!! Yeah!! We have also bought two "Hip Hammocks", which we hope will make things easier for us when we go to bring our children home.

The next thing I want to do is to pick out several outfits to bring them home in. This will be fun, since I have not bought any clothes for them at all yet.

Benjamin is 13 months old, weighs 19 pounds and is 29.5 inches tall. Nicholas is 12 months old, weights 16.5 pounds and is 27 inches tall. It will be exciting to watch them gain weight and grow very quickly after they get home.

We have our cats back home now, which is nice. The house was so quiet without them and I had missed them a lot. My husband started back to work today. Life is getting back to normal.  I had better get busy. Much to do, much to do.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

November 11, 2006

Today is Nick.'s first birthday and we are not at the baby home to celebrate it with him. That makes me sad but we will make it up to both of our sons on their second birthday, when they will hopefully be here with us. I say hopefully because we still have to get through court.  I have heard from others that CWA does a great job of preparing us for court. I hope this is true. 

I'm not sure if I mentioned that we ended up not getting to spend quite as much daily time with our children as we had thought. I mentioned in an earlier post that they are in two different groups/rooms in the orphanage and they are on two different schedules. We would see Benjamin in the mornings from around 10:30 to around 11:30, we had a break from 11:30 to 12:30 and we would normally try to find a snack of some sort for lunch, and then we would see Nicholas from 12:30 to around 2:30 and then we would see Benjamin again from around 2:30 to 3:30. We had thought we could see them both together from 2:00 to 3:30 but it turned out that they would not allow this. Since they are from two different groups/rooms, they don't want them playing together. They are trying to prevent the spreading of colds and germs. There was one day when we did get to see them both for about 10 or 15 minutes but it was kind of on the sly. It was nice though because it was long enough for us to take several pictures of all of us together. All in all, we did get to spend a good deal of total time with each of them on this trip and we are very thankful for that.

We were very please with the amount of information they provided to us about the children's medical histories and their background information. We were told we will get copies of everything in their record when the adoption is finalized and our friend received this information with her two daughters, so that is good. Of course, the amount of information received for each child is dependent on how much is know about the child's past, so some children will have less information than others. But we were please with the amount of time they spent going through it with us and answering our questions.  Everyone at the orphanage, the doctors/directors, social workers and care givers were all very, very nice and friendly to us always.

We were also very pleased with our adoption agency facilitators, translators, drivers, etc. They were very efficient, they really know their stuff and we felt we could trust them. They were always where they said they would be on time and they handled everything very professionally. They try hard to set appropriate expectations. They also really seemed to care about us, that we had everything we needed and we were happy with how things were going, etc. We did not take gifts on this trip and I am glad because, after meeting everyone, we will have a better idea of what to get, how much, etc. But the nice thing is that these people all seemed to be very good people, we enjoyed our time with them, always felt safe and cared for, etc. I highly recommend our agency (Christian World Adoption). So far, they have done a stellar job for us, both in the U.S. and while we were in our adoption country.

Friday, November 10, 2006

November 10, 2006

Yeah!! We're home at last! It is so good to be back, although we hope to get back again very soon to bring our children home.

We just arrived home late last evening. I think we had been up for almost 24 hours by the time we actually got to bed. I slept very little on the trip home, just tiny little cat naps and only maybe 2 of those, so I thought I would sleep straight through the night and be pretty much back on schedule on Friday but, not so. I woke up and started thinking about our children and whether they missed us and were sad when we did not show up on Thursday to visit them; how many times did they look towards the door, wondering where we were?

We had a very long first visit with our children, relative to others I have talked to or read about, so that was a huge blessing for us. We saw our one of our children for 8 days and the other one for 7 days, so we had a long visit with them. We were away from home for just under two weeks. We were ready to come home but very sad we had to leave without our children and anxious to get back to get them.

We are hoping and praying to get back in mid-January to bring them home but you never know. We will wait and pray and prepare. We have some additional child proofing to do around the house and lots of clothes, toys and other things (car seats, diapers, etc.) to buy before our children arrive.

We really had a very nice trip, although a long one. The people who helped us were very friendly and professional. We took one morning to go sightseeing in Volgograd and we saw the beautiful statues and memorials. Russia has such a long and interesting history. We were happy to find at the larger grocery store, which is very close to the hotel (within walking distance) that they have many of the things we will need (diapers, baby food) so we won't have to take as much over with us on the second trip.

The biggest lesson we learned on this trip is that we need to make sure we pack light for the second trip. We packed pretty well for this trip, although there were some clothes that we ended up not needing because it was not cold enough yet. Most of the stuff we took, we used.

I wish I had taken more books. I ended up reading some of my husbands books and also playing cards some. In our hotel, we had two English-speaking TV channels and they were both news channels, which was great for me since I love news. One was the BBC and the other one was out of Germany I think. They tend to repeat the same news throughout the day; you really get the fresh news reports first thing in the mornings. I guess our cable news stations do that too, but a bit differently. They usually change it up a little and it is normally live, whereas these were often recorded and they played the same thing over. It was definitely better than no news though. In Moscow they also have an English newspaper which was pretty interesting. It is also available on the Internet. I love the news and love staying up to date on all of the political happenings so I dislike being out of the U.S. during elections, so the latter part of this trip was especially hard for me:). When we got to Atlanta yesterday afternoon, we bought newspapers to find out who had taken control of what. That kept us entertained during our flight delay.

Our two little guys are absolutely adorable. We saw so many children in this orphanage and they are truly beautiful children. We feel so very blessed with our two children and I was wishing we could take at least one more home with us. The people caring for our children have big hearts and are doing their best to take care of them with the resources they have. Even so, it is obviously better for children to be in homes with parents, rather than to be in an orphanage. There is only so much the caregivers can do, when they are taking care of that many children and have limited resources.

We were very impressed with how diligent they are with trying to keep the children's environments clean and germ free. We were also impressed with the development of our children. Every child is different but most of the children we saw seemed to be doing pretty well developmentally. The rooms were bright and cheerful and the caregivers do a great job of keeping the children on a schedule. Everyone was very friendly to us and the caregivers were obviously happy that we were there to fall in love with some of their charges. They are obviously happy for the children when they are adopted into good homes, even though they are sometimes attached to the children and they cry when they leave. That would be such a hard job.

We got to see a couple of babies get their massages. It was very cute and we could tell they really enjoyed it. There is a music room where the three and four year olds go for their music classes. This is the room where we spent most of our time visiting and playing with our children (when they were not having music classes). For the children younger than three, the music teacher goes from room to room and plays music for them on her accordian and maybe a couple of other instruments. She was in the music room with us a few times and it was clear that she really loves the children.

So the children have music time, play time, eating time and napping time. The number of naps and schedule depends on the particular group room the child is in. Benjamin is in a room with younger children where there are many babies. We were told that he is still taking three naps a day; he is about 13.5 months old. Nicholas is in a room with children more his age (around 12 months old) and he takes two naps a day. We believe that Benjamin will be moved to another room with children closer to his age as soon as there is an opening, which will most likely be before we return.

Both of our children took a day or so to really warm up to us and at least two days before they started recognizing us and smiling real big at us when we came to pick them up. We would stand in the doorway of their rooms, waiting for the caregivers to finish what they were doing (usually feeding a child) and to put another layer of clothing on our child. We were only allowed to visit with one child at a time, because they are in two separate groups/rooms. They do this to try to keep down the spreading of germs and illnesses. They also require you to take off your shoes before walking in the baby rooms and also the music room. One time we also had to wash our hands before taking Benjamin. We only had to do that once so that must be dependent on who is working and how busy they are but, since Benjamin is in one of the younger baby rooms, that may be more normal for that room. As I said, they really try hard to keep the environment clean and to prevent the spreading of germs.

They keep the baby rooms very warm. They want to keep it warm enough so the children are comfortable with one layer of clothing. They don't have enough diapers to keep the children in diapers all the time so they also probably want to keep it very warm so that the children stay warm if they are wet, although they try to change them quickly. They keep the music room a bit cooler, so they put another one or two layers of clothing and a diaper on the children before you take them there. Our children were usually sweating when they were playing in the music room.

One thing that we discovered that is good to bring, depending on the age of you child, is the little socks with the dots on the bottom where they don't slip when they try to walk. The orphanage has a lot of these little booties made with thick yarn, that are really good for keeping their little feet warm but they slip easily on the floor when they are trying to walk or pull up. When we would take them to the music room, we would take off the thick booties (there was another layer under them) and put the little, no-slip socks on them. It made a world of difference when they were trying to walk. Nicholas loves to walk. He is really good a cruising and pulling up but still needs to hold one hand to walk, although we did get to see him take a couple of steps on his own. When we first met him, it was obvious that he was already pulling up and cruising well but he needed to hold two hands to walk. After just a couple of days of practicing with us, he was walking pretty well while holding one hand and, before we left, we got to see him take a couple of steps on his own. We won't be surprised if he is walking on his own when we return. Benjamin can also pull up, although his legs are not quite as strong and he is not yet as interested in spending as much time trying to walk or cruise as much. It looked as if he had spent some time in one of those jumping things that you hang in the doorway because, when we would stand him up to try to walk, he would start jumping up and down and would not try to take steps, most of the time. His room has one of those jumping things hanging in the middle of the room, so I am guessing he has spent some time playing in it.

There were quite a few toys in both of the rooms we saw, including this jumping thing, a couple of rocking horses, and other toys. The rooms are pretty well designed for how they use them and the main rooms are pretty big, with at least one or two large, built in play pens that are padded on the bottom. The padding makes it a little harder for them to learn to walk but protects them when they fall over or accidentally knock each other down. They get a lot of experience at pulling up and cruising along the outer rail of the play pen. They clearly like doing this and, when we visited the rooms, the children in the playpens were standing up, holding on to the rail, and watching us the whole time we were there. I think they let them out to play on the floor during the scheduled play time. The rest of the time, they are either in the play pen, on a rocking horse, in a walker, in the jumpy thing, in a high chair being fed or sleeping in their cribs. The rooms are painted nice, soft colors and there are large, colorful murals on the walls. They have a large changing table with pads where they can be changing two or three children at the same time. The children seem to know the ropes and they do not seem to try to get away when they are being changed or dressed. Usually our little guys just sat on the changing table and smiled at us and babbled, while the caregivers were dressing them for our outing to the music room.

I thought I had probably gotten carried away on the number of toys that I took but I was really glad we had them all. I focused on small toys that would be easy to pack. The big hits were the colorful stacking cups (three cups), these two little rings that they could easily get their little hands around and they kind of made a noise when they shook them, the child's photo album (very small, with only 5 pictures and made of that cloth stuff that kids can chew on, with pages of that crinkly material between the picture pages), children's spoons (our friend brought these and our boys had one in each hand most of the time) and these little toys I got at Tuesday Morning that are suppose to be good for developing fine motor skills. They are different shapes and, when you push a button or move a lever, they turn into an animal. For example, one of them is a circle and, when you push a button, it turns into a duck; another is heart-shaped and it turns into a little horse. One is a square and it turns into an elephant. They really liked the toys, the toys were all pretty small so they were easy to pack and light enough that carrying them in the back pack to the orphanage every day was easy and they were also easy and quick to get out and put away (we kept all of the toys in 2 large zip-lock bags - zip-lock bags are your best friends on a trip like this!). We also brought a couple of books that the boys enjoyed looking at.

Well, this is long enough for now and I am starting to get sleepy again so I will try to go back to bed. Thanks for all of your prayers for us while we were traveling. 

Thursday, November 02, 2006

November 2, 2006

Yesterday we met N and today we met B. We are very excited!! They are both in the same baby home and they both appear to be in relatively good health. They are in two separate groups with different schedules so we will be splitting our time equally between them. We can not spend time with both of them at the same time because they don't allow children from different groups to spend time together, as they are working hard to prevent the spread of colds and germs.

The boys' birthdays are only six weeks apart, so they are very close in age. They are both doing very well developmentally and are pretty much right on track with their ages, although Nicholas is a bit further along. Our international adoption doctor was also very pleased with both of them. One funny coincidence is that they both have the same Russian first name.

We have been very busy today and yesterday, meeting and playing with the children. We have had play time with the children at the same time that our Kansas City friends and her daughter has play time so we have all gotten to spend a lot of time together. Our KC friends have been showing us the ropes while we are here...where to eat, where to buy groceries, how to take public transportation to the baby home, etc. They have been very helpful and it has been nice to have them around to visit with and have dinner with.

We are planning to leave Volgograd on Wednesday around 4:00pm local time and arrive in Moscow around 9:00am on Thursday, when we will head straight for the airport for our flight to the U.S.  Overall, Volgograd is very nice; it has some very nice shops in very pretty areas.

Thanks for your continued prayers during our trip.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

October 31, 2006

We made it to Volgograd today. We are so happy to be here. We should be meeting our children tomorrow. Please keep us in your prayers. We are very excited!

We had a great time in Moscow and got to see quite a bit of the city. We had dinner last night at the Hard Rock Cafe and the food was very good. It was nice to have familiar food again. We did use the subway and we also did a bit of walking. They have very good public transportation here. Our hotel was a pretty easy walk to the Hard Rock and some main tourist areas, where we got to do some shopping.

We will be meeting up with our Kansas City friends later this afternoon. They had a successful court appearance and are visiting their daughter. We are excited to see them again.

We'll post again when we have more information.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

October 29, 2006

Just a quick note to let everyone know we made it to Moscow, Russia safely. We spent the afternoon exploring Red Square. Moscow is such a beautiful city! It's hard to believe we are really here; very surreal. We are going sightseeing tomorrow with a guide and then we are off toVolgograd early Tuesday morning.

We'll update again from there!

Friday, October 27, 2006

October 27, 2006

That was fast huh? Well, we showed up at the airport this morning, two hours before our flight, like good international travelers should, only to find that our 10:15am flight from Tulsa to Atlanta was cancelled yesterday. They re-booked us on the 6:00am flight; didn't we get a phone message on our cell phone or our home phone?? They asked us this at least five times. We did not get the message. They tried to find another flight out for us but the first thing available is tomorrow. So we are booked on the same flight tomorrow. So, we will have one less day in Moscow but it is good that we had the extra days up front so we will not be late to arrive in Volgograd.

Our case worker is out of the office today so she will have a surprise waiting for her when she returns. I called our driver/interpreter in Moscow to let him know we would be one day late. He seemed like a very nice guy and he speaks English better than I expected. I was told that we would need to speak slowly but I thought he did really well.

The biggest bummer (other than missing a day of sightseeing) is having to unpack some of the stuff and repack again tomorrow but I guess we'll live. Now we have to think of something fun to do today, since my husband has taken a vacation day today and we don't want to waste it.

Well, this will be my last-last post from the U.S. (hopefully). God willing, we will take off tomorrow and our next post will be from Russia. Thank you for all of your prayers. We are very grateful to have so many people praying for us.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

October 26, 2006

We leave tomorrow morning but this will be my last post and it will have to be short because I still have to pack:). Nothing like waiting until the last minute.

I took the cats to my sister's house today, so the house is feeling very quiet this evening. I know they will do fine and they will be happy having so much attention but I still cried when I left them. For now, they are my babies and I am not used to being at home without them. They bring a lot of joy and laughter into our house, since they are always doing something cute or funny. I know not everyone loves cats but I am convinced that those who don't like them have just never had one or gotten to know one well. Anyway, my nephew was so happy to have them at his house for two weeks. He will have a good time with them and keep them entertained and they will love having someone to play with them.

This has been a long day. I am hoping to get my shower taken, wash and dry my hair and pack quickly so I can still get to bed at a decent time. I am so tired, which is not the best way to start a long trip like this.

I think we are really in good shape though. All of our paperwork is organized and ready to go and I took a second copy of all paperwork to my sister's house, just in case. We sure have a bunch of stuff sitting around that has to go in our bags though. I hope it all fits.

Well, better get with it. Hopefully the next post will be from Russia. Please keep us in your prayers, especially on November 1st, since that is the day we are suppose to meet our children.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

October 3, 2006

Today's the day!! We finally got the call!! We are suppose to be in Volgograd, Russia on October 31st, so they have given us plenty of time to travel. That is pretty much all of the information we have for now. We do not know any information about the children we are going to meet...don't know how old they are or if they are both boys or one girl and one boy. I guess God is going to surprise us. Tomorrow we should find out what day we will be able to return home from Russia so we can make our travel arrangements. We will get our Visa apps filled out this evening and sent off tomorrow.
We are so excited!! Thanks for all of your prayers!!